Saturday, August 24, 2013

"Goodbye my LOVE!"

The sunsets have been unbelievable lately. Am I right?

Well summer is officially over. I'm never ready for summer to end. I have 10 weeks off in the summertime, and it goes by so fast.  10 weeks sounds like a long time, right? Well you wouldn't believe how fast it goes. Greedy  greedy, that's what I am! MORE SUMMER MORE SUMMER. The good news is, I'm crazy about the Fall season so that makes the transition a little bit easier. I even bought a mens cardigan from H&M yesterday and have lived in it ever since, despite the current 80 degree weather. I'm ready to bake, watch You've Got Mail, and sleep with the windows open. This rainy weekend has opened my arms up to Fall, farewell SUMMER!

On a grandmotherly note get a load of this. In the summertime when I have a little more free time I try to visit my grandma every week. She is the best of everybody. This whole blog could be devoted just to her, she has so much personality and spunk. I'm  head over heels crazy about her. The last time I visited her we were talking about Nick, she was full of questions as usual.  She asked if we were getting married in the temple and if Nick was a Mormon. I assured her that we were and that he was. Then I told her that he was from Texas and she said, "Are you telling me that Mormons have made it all the way to Texas?!" I was just about ready to tell her that the church is international now but I didn't want her head to blow off her body. She is perfect, and I'm so proud to be her namesake. There is never a dull moment with her around.

Here's to a new school year and an exciting Fall!

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Stretch & Pull

See me, ready to own my soon to be wifehood.

I feel like life is full of ebbs and flows. I've had a good life and I feel like most of it has been flowing and enjoyable. Overtime I've grown and matured, but most of the time it has been so slow that I don't notice it. Occasionally the growing is more consolidated and painful. Experiences happen and it forces you to stretch and grown at a quick pace.

Naturally as my life has changed and I've advanced in my schooling and ventured out on my own it has been uncomfortable and scary. Stretching and pulling is inevitable in these circumstances but it's fairly short lived.  Other times tragedy strikes and it can take years to overcome and feel like you've grown and accepted what has unexpectedly ripped your heart from your chest. That dig your heels in stretch and pull is the worst kind. So difficult to wrap your head around why, and searching for the lesson to be learned and how to handle pain and heartbreak.

As I've dated Nick and we've gotten engaged I've had to stretch and grow and it has been painful and uncomfortable. I was really good at being single, like the best of everybody at being single. I knew that I needed to make a change if I wanted to have a family and progress into a less selfish way of life and I'm so glad I've endured the stretching and pulling over the last year and a half. I'm actually really looking forward to these next few years of growth and progression. I'm going to kill this wife and motherhood business. I'm ready. Bring on a new round of ebbs and flows, this girl is waiting with open arms.