Wednesday, November 7, 2007

How did I get here?


So I, the older half of two ladies and no baby, had a very weird epiphany today. Have you ever stopped and thought, how in the world did I get here? I had parent teacher conferences today and while I was getting ready for one of the conferences I had this overwhelming feeling of bewilderment. I kept thinking how did I get to this point in my life, I am giving grades to kids, what? I remember being in 2nd grade, vividly even, and now I'm Mrs. Stanton sitting down with parents and giving grades to students. Did I really finish high school, let alone college? It really just hit me like a ton of bricks, I was almost out of breath, I'm sure my eyes were wide, and my face was blank. I really was at a loss. Luckily I had about 8 more conferences to help me forget about my feelings of doubt and confusion. When you are going through day to day life it seems to be going slow, but in retrospect life flies by. I remember coming home from school and watching Saved by the Bell everyday, I remember my Mom getting on my back about practicing the piano, I remember being the V.I.P in my class, I remember my mom telling me to go to bed when it was still light outside, it wasn't that long ago I swear. Don't get me wrong life's great and I'm happy about where I am it's just crazy that now I'm 22 with a career and I don't even know how it happened. Wow!

8 comments:

Two Ladies and No Baby said...

Poor, poor lady. Lucky for me, I'm still in college. Enjoying immature activities and sleeping in til 11 and not feeling guilty about it. I'll drink to that!
-The younger

Nick said...

ahhhhhh. genius. but at least youre somewhere and you like it. most people get this thought in mid-life and are bummed because they've comprimised their life away.

Riverside Sisters said...

awww my ashley is growing up! you know i had that same thought when i was 9 months pregnant with will, but it was the best thing ever! at least we are going to be young forever with our teeny bopper ways!

Amy said...

sorry the above comment was from me...i was logged onto a different blog. a girl in my ward taught our class about blogs and i was in that one! whoops!

Eliza said...

Becca, this is Eliza Bell-thompson. how are you? i was just doing some good ol blog stalking and found yours. congrats on being a teacher, wow, that is impressive. Anyway, i just wanted to say hi, and btw lol on mrs. stanton, I had her too.

cfsingers said...

I have the same feelings when I look at my children as adults. I can't believe I am this old. Life does go by fast. Enjoy each day and be happy--life is too short to be otherwise. MEEMEE

Celia and Scott said...

Oh Becks, you're livin' the dream aren't ya? What kills me is not how old you are, because you're still quite young if you ask me, but how much power your have. You can keep those kids in from recess, give them extra homework, tell them they're practically mentally handicapped -- you know, the usual fun teacher stuff.

Cody and Nikell said...

Sometimes I feel this way when I am awakened by a screaming child. Whose kid is that? Then I come to my senses and realize it's mine and there are two of them and when did I have two kids?